Come up to meet you, tell you I’m sorry, you don’t know how lovely you are. I had to find you, tell you I need you, tell you I set you apart. Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions, oh let’s go back to the start. Running in circles, coming up tails, heads on a science apart.
Sometimes, you think one event can change everything. Like in the movies when the couple goes through some traumatic experience together and then after that’s over they just have to be together forever and happy. But life’s not like that. It’s strange how much different real life is. It’s like the fallout happens and then things are changed until something else goes wrong. Like the night you said you’d never abandon me ever again and it was the stupidest thing you’d done. Remember that? I do. I remember when I felt invincible, like I’d never be hurt again, like you were it, you were what I needed, what I wanted, and that the universe finally made sense to me. You belonged to me and I to you and that was that, I could finally rest, that everything was right where it should be. And then that moment ended and here I am about a month later, feeling the same sense of abandonment you had me feeling the first time. I finally figured out that you’re not what I can’t get over, it’s how happy and how strong I felt with you that’s what keeps me holding on. I want to feel that way again but it’s hard when the happiest and strongest I’ve ever felt, has been with you. I know I’ll be fine eventually, I always am. When our big moment happened, I felt like a wrong had been corrected. I don’t need this wrong to be corrected, I just need to know that it gets better than this.
Nobody said it was easy, nobody said it would be this hard.